Poet’s Corner: My Own Wall

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We’re back with another instalment of Poet’s Corner, our series featuring poems written for you, by you! This time, Xena writes about trying to break through barriers…

My Own Wall

I am once back to where I was

To the place I am familiar with the most.

Where it leaves a bittersweet comfortness

Of the silent pain

Once again, nothing was the same

I open my mouth, but it’s wires keep shutting,

Latching onto every moment it can find so that it doesn’t abuse its own code of conduct

Well, the problem is

It’s my own.

I bring myself to a world, where there are countless copycat versions of myself,

with slight improvements and less bugs but then that brings no certain light to the table.

Just eternal darkness.

The wall opens and knows right through me, inside and out, it knows on what I should and

shouldn’t do

It keeps me safe

In the worst way possible.

People say a way to get out of your comfort zone is by doing, but even slight sparks create

the ultimate disaster zone of endless internal crashes and error 404s.

I tried to scrape the wall once

But the layers kept on repatching itself

Endlessly, to the point that I obeyed and stood there silently, waiting for it to calm down

I have built my voice but there is no barrier that I can break, nor fix

I have built my own wall.

We’ll be sharing your poetry throughout the year, and it’s totally up to you what you write about. If you want to get involved, let us know over at @NCS or fill in our writer application form.